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Friday Dec 13, 2019
Ep.4 Goal Zero
Friday Dec 13, 2019
Friday Dec 13, 2019
Chicken Mind Nuggets.
Hosted by Wifey
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References for this episode
https://meteoreducation.com/how-does-thinking-positive-thoughts-affect-neuroplasticity/
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"Thinking Music" by Kevin MacLeod (https://incompetech.com)
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Show script: (may differ slightly from spoken word)
Earlier this year I took up running as a form of exercise post laser lipo. The results from laser lipo are best seen if you work out 24 hours after the treatment. One night I was running and didn’t pay attention to the crosswalk lights before I ran. I was in the zone and being a life time non-runner I was just going and feeling good that I could. After I crossed the road two cars got into an accident at the intersection I crossed at and I thought it may have been my fault. I called the police and told them there was an accident at that intersection, then I called my husband because I was riddled with anxiety. He said, “get out of your own head.” His message was meant as a loving in your face wake up message intended to let me know that my anxiety is nothing but fear based and contains no basis or evidence for needing to be in my body. However, it was the last thing I wanted to hear. I closed the ear doors to let my-self find a comfortable corner within my insecurity and turned the other way and ran back home. I had wine, a lot of wine, because fuck my progress I just didn’t want to feel. The weird thing is this was one of the most beautiful and eye opening moments of my life because that whole situation made me realize that I need to come up with a plan to get rid of this anxiety because I’ve had it for too long and another year or 33 would not make any improvements that I have already made better. So, I started goal zero which is a year long timeline I put on myself to do everything I can to get rid of this anxiety. I went back to therapy, I continued running, I meditated every day, I cut the caffeine, I practiced nightly gratitude and morning reflection and intention, I had radical honesty with myself and became involved with stoicism, Taoism, and Buddhist philosophy. I put an index card on the wall that says, “Goal Zero: you can do this. December is the goal. Find and collect your maintenance tools.” I’m writing this in October and I can say that I have gotten rid of about 90% of it. Basically I was doing everything I didn’t want to do because I would have preferred to stay at home and drink wine until work started the next week and I could just drown my stupid thoughts in it until I buried the incident under a “it doesn’t matter” shield. The thing is I made it matter and I made it matter because I wanted it to change my brain since the brain is the source of your thoughts, happiness, and decisions to be depressed and have wine. If you were told that you could change your brain to be happier, would you? Since the neurons in our brain store information like little stores each selling their own brand of feeling, then connecting those stores via road or disconnecting them by destroying the road prevents and establishes communication. Each store will give you a free sample of the feeling that it is selling. You may pass by the sad neuron store and get a brief sad feeling like that time you remember a sad event or pass by the happy store and get a free sample of a happy feeling. If you live near one of these stores, aren’t you most likely to visit what is close by because you run a busy schedule? Move next to the stores you want to shop from. You don’t have to know the locations or merchandise in the store and you probably won’t because knowing what each neuron does should be left for the people who get paid to know that stuff for brain surgery, but you can do the things which are most likely helpful in relocating you to a better store. For me, I put a whole bunch of eggs into the goal zero basket and threw them at the wall to see what stuck. The zero is not actually a zero like absolute zero which is only measured in Kelvins, but is a close enough zero that I can be happy about making the journey on. What have you tried in your basket? What’s in your goal zero?
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